You’re either going to read this and be blown away or think I’m completely cray cray.
But honestly I love this stuff, it forces you to question things.
After you experience these things, you stop just existing and you start believing there is more…
So what on earth am I babbling on about??
The AFTERLIFE… no I’m not John Edward I don’t talk to ghosts, I’d shit my panties!
I’m just someone who has had a lot of unexplained things happened to them after loved ones passed away.
So many in fact, I couldn’t possibly fit them into one post.
So I’ve picked one experience that has really stuck with me to share with you.
The most profoundthing to ever happen to me was when my Uncle Bruce passed away.
I don’t know how to explain our bond and connection, he was my hero.
We spent over 10 years apart when my nana passed away, she held our family together and we for some reason lost contact with him and his family.
One day my mum was at the air port waiting for a flight and over the loud speaker she heard his name being called out.
She was shocked it was too skinny to be her brother who was always a large man, tanned skin with Tattoos.
But as luck would have it, it was him – on his way to the same destination on the same flight. If he hadn’t of been called out she’d have never of known.
After over 10 years we were reunited!!
From the moment he came back into our life he was my best buddy, I’d run to him for everything.
Every decision I’d ask his opinion.
We knew something wasn’t right, he looked sick but would avoid talking about it and refused to see a dr.
Until one day at work he collapsed and when tested he was diagnosed with bowel cancer.
It would progress and be a grim prognosis, he fought a battle a warrior would have lost 100 times over, the pain and suffering of one person is enough to change you!
He beat all the odds and pulled through, he was cancer free after years of treatment and fighting – he said he couldn’t of done it without the support of his family around him.
Was my nana looking after him from above orchestrating the whole air port thing so he could have his family back during the fight of his life?
Was he brought back into my life to teach me how to be a better person? Because what happens next changed me forever.
He wasn’t one of the lucky ones who got their remission dream and lived on into old age.
The Dr’s missed a huge tumour forming deep into his stomach and on a routine scan it was found and it was terminal.
That’s a shitty word… Terminal, it’s dirty and it’s clinical and it’s the last word you want to hear in a sentence, when it’s connected to someone you love so much.
But unfortunately that was our reality, we spent months in hospital with him, travelling far to sit with him everyday and make sure he was comfortable, my life on hold and in limbo.
I was getting married in the March the following year, I asked him to walk me down the Aisle, I was the closest thing he had to a daughter and he’d never have the chance otherwise.
He was so excited and honoured and it’s all we spoke about. My Dad offering to push him if he was too unwell in his wheel chair.
As the weeks went on he got more unwell and ended up in palliative care.
The Dr had said to us, he is holding on for family. Let him know it’s ok to let go and we are ok with it.
He said it would make the process easier for him, if he thought we were at peace with it.
The strangest most unnatural thing to me is planning a funeral with someone who hasn’t passed yet.
I wrote him a letter, I couldn’t face telling him it was ok, because to me it wasn’t. I didn’t want to let go.
In my letter to him I wrote, “if for some reason you are not here to walk me down the aisle can you please give me a sign you are with me. (Nothing too freaky, i don’t want to shit my pants).” I still have a copy and they are my exact words.
Over the October long weekend we weren’t meant to head out on this particular day, but mum and I bumped into my Aunty shopping at a centre we all don’t normally go to. It was really random.
We just mentioned to her maybe we should go out today and she agreed so we all jumped in the car like we normally did and took the long drive out together.
When we got there everything seemed normal, we’d always push his bed out on to his balcony so he could have a ciggie!
As we started to move him like usual he protested and started acting funny.
From that moment we knew we had come for a reason, another Devine intervention?
We weren’t meant to go that day, but for some reason we bumped into each other and decided to.
We held his hand till he left us, one of the most life changing experiences. I was never the same – you see things different and appreciate life when you see how easily it can be taken from you.
Several moments after he passed we were sitting in the room with him when mum and I felt a wind gush past us and we physically seen the curtain move and the air freshener on the ledge was knocked over.
The windows couldn’t be open and the door was closed.. how do you explain that?
After months of trying to move on without the biggest part of what was our life for so long we found peace knowing he was resting.
My big day arrives and my beautiful uncle is not there as we had planned, so my mummy did the honours of giving me away in his place.
Again so many things happened for this one moment to take place.
My husbands family were standing out front of the wrong church.. we seen them as we drove past.
We had to do a few happy laps to give them time to get to our actual church lol.
This obviously made me extra late, we got out of the car and everyone was getting into position to walk down the aisle.
Mum fluffing my veil, the girls in front giving me the final smiles and looks of support, when mum was trying to pull me in line I pulled back so I couldn’t be seen when they open the church door.
As I did this, over my shoulder I seen my uncles car (his prized possession, a baby blue Ford V8) pull into the Church drive way do a u-turn and speed off.. you couldn’t see who was driving and that manoeuvre was illegal. Of all the places to do it, at that moment, in that car!! All we knew was that was our sign.
I dropped to my knees clutching my stomach trying not to ruin my make up from all the tears!
My mum knew too, he was with me and I felt it!
I would go to a psychic and she brought it up and confirmed he gave me my sign.
As I retell this story, i sit here balling my eyes out again.
Every single thing that took place from the moment he walked back into my life till the last second I had with him was totally meant to happen that way.
If you’re a skeptic that’s fine, but as I said this is just one story of so many and this was not chance.. it was pre determined fate and I was so blessed to have him in my life for even just a short time.
I wouldn’t be me, I would hold the view on life that I do now. I wouldn’t have the courage to tackle hard obstacles or be so humble.
I know what it’s like to feel pain so deep you want to give up and I know the feeling our pure happiness! It makes you feel alive!
I am so sad my children will never meet him, but I made a promise they’d know who he was and somehow I’d find a way to keep his memory with us.
Far out life is crazy… you get caught up in the day to day grind of it all, you miss signs like these!
Take time out to appreciate life in general, you only need one shot if you get it right.
I have a headache from crying now! Hormonal pregnant lady alert!
Will share more with you later, I’m like a piñata of ghost stories.
In loving memory of my beautiful uncle Bruce, taken from us way too soon and missed always. We love you xxx
Speak soon Jess xx
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